I kept thinking about this while I was in the shower: “Am I ready to sit down, open my computer and write again?” I never really stopped writing (I have a notebook that comes handy) but this was the first time I did not blog anything.
The Reason of My Inactivity
I got sick — sick of the Internet. There were too many things happening: sponsors tapping me for projects, co-bloggers getting in touch for guest posts, the #WanderFuckingLust series on Thought Catalog, among others. It got out of control until I didn’t find the energy to face them anymore. Wow, this blogging life is too much pressure!
Often people attempt to live their lives backwards: they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then, do what you need to do, in order to have what you want.
— MARGARET YOUNG
I felt like a prisoner of social media and the laptop so I set myself free. I decided to have an indefinite break and didn’t care if my blog stats will go down. I needed to have time for myself. I needed to connect to my spirit. I needed to see friends, to go out, to get drunk and gain new insights. After all, that’s where I get to formulate blog posts anyway — through unbelievably crazy experiences.
But now I am back and I want to share to all of you what happened in the process.
I re-connected with my family and friends.
Traveling kept me away from home for a long time and this was the best time to re-connect. I called my parents and we talked for hours. I spent a lot of time on Whatsapp and Viber participating in group chats of my family and friends. Man, I was really surprised because I missed out on a lot of things! I also realised I missed my phone. It’s been ages since I last used it to chat or text. I didn’t even charge it not until I decided to take a blogging break! Can you believe that?!
I took care of my health
I was never sick but for the longest time, I’ve been a girl scout to avoid going to the hospital and paying bills. That’s what traveling does to you: you will always do your best to avoid accidents (which is good) and you will endure an unbearable pain because you are saving money. The past few weeks, I decided I will never hinder myself to have health expenses. I took care of my one-year expired insurance even if I didn’t feel like renewing it at first. It’s too freaking expensive and I always think I can get by traveling without it. I swallowed my pride and convinced myself: “You need this. This is important.” There were other conflicting thoughts inside my head but I always try to remember what my mother said: self care is important. I am really proud of myself for doing this!
I went out with friends.
Traveling friends, I mean. I’ve been in Mancora (Peru) for a month now and didn’t even get to see my friends who live/are here. I spent a lot of time with them. We got drunk, partied all night, talked about life — things I haven’t done for a long time because I was busy “blogging.”
I am armed with new learnings.
… and I am really willing to write more! From this experience, I have formulated a lot of things to write about. I realised that the best way to learn is to be out there and not be in Peru facing the computer all day. I spent watching sunsets on the beach, playing with the neighbor’s dogs, eating street food all the time (sorry, mom) and many other things.
Finally, I have decided to keep some things to myself. I know I always share everything to my readers but this time, I want to leave something for me. Some memories that need not to be published, but remembered forever.
Another news: I have a new blog layout! Thanks to the creative mind of Kisty Mea who blogs at Let’s Go Wander. I really love the new look! You should definitely follow her because she’s beginning to travel the Philippines and she is going to be big someday. I just know it!
I cannot promise not to have indefinite breaks in the future but I think this was good for me so I am going to do it every once in a while. It felt so good not to care and just live in the moment. I felt infinite participating in the world instead of conversing with my laptop. Blogging requires a lot of things and I decided I will not require myself to comply anymore. I will do it whenever I want to! Who knows, I might end up doing it more frequent than ever.
What happened to you guys for the past three weeks? Did I miss something? Share your thoughts and I hope you like the new layout as much as I do!